To blog or not to blog

It's really bad. This blog is the second one I open today. I just opened it and I'm already thinking about closing it. Darn, I really have to make out what's happening in my mind before going for some actions.

So let's think about it right now.

Q: Why did I opened this blog?

The last one was in wordpress.com, it was slow, the design inflexible. With blogger it's faster and it is more compatible with firefox. There also are less bugs with Opera.

However the bad thing is wordpress got its own small French community. It's rather cool over there. Everyone knows everyone. What's more with wordpress there are more functions such as the stats thing, the widgets and all the gizmos. I also have the impression that with wordpress our blog is better rank in search engines.

Q: Am I going for a long term blogging?

This is certainly the most interesting question. There is absolutely no reason to keep on blogging if it does not last.

The real question is can it last?

Anybody would like to blog for a long period if his/her blog work well. The deduction looks pretty easy. This blog need to be successful then I will carry on blogging. The main problem with it is that I have to spend lots of time to advert, and I hate that.

So the subjacent question is do I want to do what I don't like?

God damn it no! I do not want to do what I do not like!

So well, with less than 5 minutes I figure out that blogging is really not something made for me. Nevertheless -- yes, I am tough -- I sometimes really want to share what is going on in my mind. That is to say, I occasionally want to blog. But I can't be very popular by doing this way.

The solution, the ultimate solution to escape this dreadful fate is to say that I blog for myself. No statistics, no feeds, no comment. Just me and my blog. I have to admit that it sounds annoying as hell but it certainly a better solution that to open a new blog each time I want to write a small note of about ten lines.

It is so dreadful. I so love blogging, I love writting so much. I want people to read my stories but I know that no one will never read any of them. Notwithstanding, I'll be blogging. This is what people call 'fate'. Reminds me of Aimee Mann's song, or the tragedie of Sophocles.

ps. Now that I'm using blogger it feels a lot faster than wordpress.com


EDIT:
Okay, I have deleted one of my wordpress blog to dedicate to this one. The handy side of Blogger seduced me. Well, as it is a blog for myself, I do not really need to advertise is not it?

This blog is so new, so empty that I want to fill it -- although with frivolous texts. But nobody cares about it, neither do I. So let's go. I'll be as honest as possible here. I'll be writing everything even the most shameful ones. In return, I will not divulge my identity. Never.